That’s right, after more than a year of not taking part, I thought it’s time to sign up again.
For those of you wondering what this bloghop is about:
On the first Wednesday of every month, a (very large) group of us writers get together to share our insecurities and encouragements with other writers.
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What could I be insecure about? you might ask.
At the moment, I’m struggling with exhaustion. I don’t mean this in a medical sense or anything like that (I don’t think), but ever since the rough year I had in 2014, I’ve been trying my best to stay positive, stay strong and keep moving forward.
For the most part, I have to say I’ve done that, and I’m incredibly proud about that fact. But half way through the month, I’ve signed a contract for a new job which, although full-time, has flexible hours depending on the amount of work I need to do to meet my objectives.
Which means that, for all intents and purposes, I should have a great year in 2016.
But almost as soon as I was able to take my first real breath that didn’t feel like I’d get sucked under at any second, the exhaustion hit. I guess I’ve been so busy being tough and strong or whatever that the moment I didn’t have to be anymore, my energy gave out.
So although I’m used to setting huge goals every month, I decided to give myself a little break until January. You know, to rest and recover.
My muse has other ideas. I keep feeling these urges to get back to writing, but every time I finally get to the point where I can sit down and write, that exhaustion is back. And that means I’m constantly swinging between not wanting to write and wanting to write, while fearing that forcing myself to write will just end up pushing me into a full blown writer’s burn out.
(If you haven’t experienced burn out, you’re lucky. But let’s just say it’s a six month long writer’s block on steroids.)
I honestly have no idea about what I should do to rest myself out enough to start writing again. Or even if I should disregard my exhaustion and write anyway.
And now it’s 9:15 pm and it’s probably a good idea to just turn in and sleep.
How are you doing? What do you do when you’re exhausted beyond belief? Do you still write, or do you recharge those batteries? If the latter, how?